Tuesday, December 16, 2008
2 months old today
Turns out that my fears were unfounded. I think I did pretty well for a first time mom. Bathing Ezra was ok, I think cos he is slightly hardier and easier to grip. He is a very good boy... everyone says so! Once in a while, he would fuss more than usual, drink very little very often and sleep very little. He likes to disturb me especially when I am having a meal. I get so tired sometimes, I just want to drop dead. Seeing him laugh and grow makes my day, though. I would not exchange anything to take care of him everyday and watch him grow.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
God made all things perfect
There is a reason why you need a man and a woman to make babies and why they are made differently. Because the other makes up for that one's faults and compliments one with his talents.
I am thankful that God has given me the perfect partner in my baby's daddy. He is strong in all I have lacking and (a little!) weak in most I excel in. I think he felt my stress today and helped to feed the baby almost every single feed. I thank God that I actually don't feel Ezra direct so daddy can feed him too, this is a blessing in disguise. I can say with confidence I will not be able to get through the day with his help.
Auntie is gone for 12 hours now. Since then, Ezra fed 7 times, pooped 3 times, vomited twice and fussed quite alot. We were wondering why he doesn't fuss so much with Auntie around! I think he knows Auntie is no longer here to help... maybe he just wants to give us a hard time! Anyway, I feel more confident now that I'll be able to handle him alone.
"God, thank you for giving me a lovely husband and baby. Please help me to take care of them like the godly woman in Proverbs 31."
I am thankful that God has given me the perfect partner in my baby's daddy. He is strong in all I have lacking and (a little!) weak in most I excel in. I think he felt my stress today and helped to feed the baby almost every single feed. I thank God that I actually don't feel Ezra direct so daddy can feed him too, this is a blessing in disguise. I can say with confidence I will not be able to get through the day with his help.
Auntie is gone for 12 hours now. Since then, Ezra fed 7 times, pooped 3 times, vomited twice and fussed quite alot. We were wondering why he doesn't fuss so much with Auntie around! I think he knows Auntie is no longer here to help... maybe he just wants to give us a hard time! Anyway, I feel more confident now that I'll be able to handle him alone.
"God, thank you for giving me a lovely husband and baby. Please help me to take care of them like the godly woman in Proverbs 31."
Saturday, November 15, 2008
1 month
Ezra is a month old tomorrow.
And yes, the dreaded time has come - the time for Auntie to leave. I don't think anyone can understand the anxiety I'm feeling. They might think I'm just being lazy, impatient or plain scared. Yes, I am definitely impatient and scared but NOT lazy.
Tomorrow is the first day of forever, just me and Ezra. His life is in my hands, I better make the right decisions. Oh yah, I'm so worried, trembling in my pants now that I'll be such a failure at being a mom. Is this depression setting in?
I can only pray and ask God for help.
This is supposed to be a time of celebration, not a time of agony but I just can't help but be upset.
I think this is depression setting in.
And yes, the dreaded time has come - the time for Auntie to leave. I don't think anyone can understand the anxiety I'm feeling. They might think I'm just being lazy, impatient or plain scared. Yes, I am definitely impatient and scared but NOT lazy.
Tomorrow is the first day of forever, just me and Ezra. His life is in my hands, I better make the right decisions. Oh yah, I'm so worried, trembling in my pants now that I'll be such a failure at being a mom. Is this depression setting in?
I can only pray and ask God for help.
This is supposed to be a time of celebration, not a time of agony but I just can't help but be upset.
I think this is depression setting in.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
A mother's anxiety
I'm already feeling upset that Auntie is going to leave soon. I have mixed feelings - on one hand, I would love to be more hands on with Ezra, do things my way and spend more time with him. On the other hand, I wished there was someone there that could 'take over' whenever I am tired, like bathing, feeding and cleaning him. And of course, I am quite fond of her although some of her ways could be improved. And I like her cooking as well! My MIL doesn't fry much stuff and I love fried stuff!!!
I've also been thinking of how to 'arrange' the house so that it'll be conducive for all of us. Have decided to make the spare room Ezra's play room and all the pets and hobbies goes out into the living room. I spend so little time outside these days. So, there are a couple of improvements to make and some tidying to do before Auntie leaves, else I probably would have little time to do these when I'm with Ezra full time.
I've also been thinking of how to 'arrange' the house so that it'll be conducive for all of us. Have decided to make the spare room Ezra's play room and all the pets and hobbies goes out into the living room. I spend so little time outside these days. So, there are a couple of improvements to make and some tidying to do before Auntie leaves, else I probably would have little time to do these when I'm with Ezra full time.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
This new phase...
Just browsing through the older posts in this blog... it all seemed like a lifetime ago! So familiar yet seemed so long ago.
Wow, time flies, from the time I conceived Ezra till now, he is 3 weeks old. I haven't totally done all the 'thinking' yet... like how I would like to raise him, the expectations, the rules, etc. I pray that God will give me the wisdom to be the mother described in Proverbs 31.
Wow, time flies, from the time I conceived Ezra till now, he is 3 weeks old. I haven't totally done all the 'thinking' yet... like how I would like to raise him, the expectations, the rules, etc. I pray that God will give me the wisdom to be the mother described in Proverbs 31.
I don't want to miss a thing
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure
Yah, this is not the most edifying song, but it speaks my heart right now.
As I stand and watch Ezra sleep, I thank God for this amazing child that He has given to me. He makes faces while he sleeps, his every movement trills me, I could watch him forever. My heart fills with unconditional love for him (I can say that now he is a good boy!) and my eyes fills with tears of joy just thinking of him.
Oh! How much more does our Dear Lord love us? Much more than we can ever imagine or comprehend.
"Lord, help me to set my priorities right, help me to put you first, help me to love and serve you with all my heart."
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure
Yah, this is not the most edifying song, but it speaks my heart right now.
As I stand and watch Ezra sleep, I thank God for this amazing child that He has given to me. He makes faces while he sleeps, his every movement trills me, I could watch him forever. My heart fills with unconditional love for him (I can say that now he is a good boy!) and my eyes fills with tears of joy just thinking of him.
Oh! How much more does our Dear Lord love us? Much more than we can ever imagine or comprehend.
"Lord, help me to set my priorities right, help me to put you first, help me to love and serve you with all my heart."
Friday, October 31, 2008
Parenthood
I don't think any first-time parents can prepare enough for their new roles... you can read all the books in the world about all the known issues, but when the crunch comes, its all confusing. Different people have different opinions about the same issues. What should I do? Decisions, decisions, decisions!
PERSIST ON BREASTFEEDING DIRECTLY OR BOTTLE FEED EXPRESSED BREASTMILK?
Docs says to feed direct and throw the evil bottle away. Other mothers did perfectly well with bottle-fed expressed breastmilk from day 1.
WHICH BOTTLE TO USE?
PD says Dr. Brown's. Other mothers say its difficult to wash, thus risk of residue and food poisoning?
CONTINUE TO USE THE NIPPLE SHIELD OR ...?
Docs says nipple shields should not be used unless there is absolutely no choice. Ling at Parentcraft says it perfectly fine to continue using the nipple shield.
I have been reading up on breastfeeding on forums and websites while expressing. My days are so packed... let Ezra suckle, express, a little housework, a little R&R time... that's all I manage in a day. Now I realise as a mother, I need to make the decisions - how to feed my baby, what is best for him, etc.I don't always have straight answers, in case like the above, there are so many views, I just have to decide which is most comfortable and best for baby, and go for it. I pray that God will give me the wisdom to make the right choices.
Ezra is 16 days old today. Boy, has he grown! He weighs 3.35kg on Wednesday, that's 2 weeks old. He is longer now and his face seemed to have changed! He is still a good boy, only crying to be feed or when he is dirty. I don't think he cries more than an hour a day! I hope he stays this way :)
PERSIST ON BREASTFEEDING DIRECTLY OR BOTTLE FEED EXPRESSED BREASTMILK?
Docs says to feed direct and throw the evil bottle away. Other mothers did perfectly well with bottle-fed expressed breastmilk from day 1.
WHICH BOTTLE TO USE?
PD says Dr. Brown's. Other mothers say its difficult to wash, thus risk of residue and food poisoning?
CONTINUE TO USE THE NIPPLE SHIELD OR ...?
Docs says nipple shields should not be used unless there is absolutely no choice. Ling at Parentcraft says it perfectly fine to continue using the nipple shield.
I have been reading up on breastfeeding on forums and websites while expressing. My days are so packed... let Ezra suckle, express, a little housework, a little R&R time... that's all I manage in a day. Now I realise as a mother, I need to make the decisions - how to feed my baby, what is best for him, etc.I don't always have straight answers, in case like the above, there are so many views, I just have to decide which is most comfortable and best for baby, and go for it. I pray that God will give me the wisdom to make the right choices.
Ezra is 16 days old today. Boy, has he grown! He weighs 3.35kg on Wednesday, that's 2 weeks old. He is longer now and his face seemed to have changed! He is still a good boy, only crying to be feed or when he is dirty. I don't think he cries more than an hour a day! I hope he stays this way :)
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Reality hits home
We went home on Saturday, 18 Oct. The confinement lady didn't expect us to be this early, she was on holiday, so she could not come till Monday. For the next 2 days, we had to juggle all the work ourselves.
Lugged our many bouquets and the new bundle home. Dad and Sis came to help out too. Thankfully Wally was good, he was a little distracted by dad and sis at first, so he didn't pounce on the baby. Actually, he has been a good dog. He didn't bark whenever Ezra cries and Ezra doesn't cry when he barks. It's almost perfect. Wally continues to be tame and I hope he stays this way forever!!! Oh how i love my 2 babies!
Ezra was quite good, at least he didn't cry for hours on end. He usually fusses a little when he is hungry and dirty, else he spends the rest of his time sleeping. Of the 2 days, he only fussed more, twice. I was juggling with feeding, changing and try to produce some milk. I was getting better each time.
By Sunday, my breast was engorged and it hurt quite badly. I made Heng massage me, with some relieve. I tried expressing, but it was a pathetic attempt. It was a stressful time, because I wanted very much to give my baby the best, but I wasn't producing any. I also did not want him to be on formula for too long, I hoped to switch him back to breast milk, asap. We also managed to bathe the baby on Sunday. It was a mess with many hands involved, but we managed. *phew* At some times, Heng took over the feeding and changing, which I was grateful for.
On Monday, the confinement lady came. It was a MAJOR relieve. She seemed to be very experienced and not too old-fashioned in her thoughts and ways. She will take over taking care of the baby - feeding, bathing, changing, washing. She will also wash my clothes, cook for me and do some light cleaning. Suddenly, I had nothing much to do, but rest. I was to concentrate on being a cow!!!
The food was good, the pampering was good. The money we had to spend on things are not so good. Needed some extra things around the house - buckets, hot pot and various miscellaneous things... which amounted to quite a fair bit.
On Tuesday, we were due to visit the pediatrician and gynae. Baby had to do some blood tests. He has mild jaundice, which is quite common in babies, so we had to sun him. Dr. Paul said I was all ok, the stitch wound was good, except I need to move my bowels more. And since I was at Dr. Paul's, I decided to drop by the Parentcraft Center to consult them on feeding.
The nurse commented that my breast was quite blocked, so she recommended I stayed on for some treatment. Another lactation consultant massaged my breast and put me on a pump. I felt like a piece of dough, being kneaded and grabbed every possible way to clear the milk ducts. It hurts when she squeezed me!!! Later Mrs Wong happened to be around and Ezra was fretting, so she give him a little massage and fed him. She commented about his filament being too near to the edge of the tongue. He could have problems latching and grow up with a short tongue. If it does not correct itself, we might have to snip it off. Yucks. We are praying now that the correction will take place naturally.
Later, we waited to register Ezra's birth and get the Baby Bonus applications done. Today we spent $207 with the PD, $90+ at Dr. Paul's, $80 at Parentcraft for the treatment and vitamins and another $40 to register the birth. Wow, $400 in a day! It was scary!!!
When I got home and tried expressing.... lo and behold, the flow was easier! Praise God! I expressed about 100ml in all that day. Btw, I weigh myself, I was 66.8kg on the day of delivery, now I am 59.4kg. I lost 7.4kg. I hope to lose 10kg more, heh.
God is good indeed. I prayed for a smooth and quick delivery, a healthy baby, for pains to be relieved, for breast milk... God answered them all. Now I need to pray for God to help us with our finances and also help Ezra's filament to be corrected. I have no doubt that God will bless.
Lugged our many bouquets and the new bundle home. Dad and Sis came to help out too. Thankfully Wally was good, he was a little distracted by dad and sis at first, so he didn't pounce on the baby. Actually, he has been a good dog. He didn't bark whenever Ezra cries and Ezra doesn't cry when he barks. It's almost perfect. Wally continues to be tame and I hope he stays this way forever!!! Oh how i love my 2 babies!
Ezra was quite good, at least he didn't cry for hours on end. He usually fusses a little when he is hungry and dirty, else he spends the rest of his time sleeping. Of the 2 days, he only fussed more, twice. I was juggling with feeding, changing and try to produce some milk. I was getting better each time.
By Sunday, my breast was engorged and it hurt quite badly. I made Heng massage me, with some relieve. I tried expressing, but it was a pathetic attempt. It was a stressful time, because I wanted very much to give my baby the best, but I wasn't producing any. I also did not want him to be on formula for too long, I hoped to switch him back to breast milk, asap. We also managed to bathe the baby on Sunday. It was a mess with many hands involved, but we managed. *phew* At some times, Heng took over the feeding and changing, which I was grateful for.
On Monday, the confinement lady came. It was a MAJOR relieve. She seemed to be very experienced and not too old-fashioned in her thoughts and ways. She will take over taking care of the baby - feeding, bathing, changing, washing. She will also wash my clothes, cook for me and do some light cleaning. Suddenly, I had nothing much to do, but rest. I was to concentrate on being a cow!!!
The food was good, the pampering was good. The money we had to spend on things are not so good. Needed some extra things around the house - buckets, hot pot and various miscellaneous things... which amounted to quite a fair bit.
On Tuesday, we were due to visit the pediatrician and gynae. Baby had to do some blood tests. He has mild jaundice, which is quite common in babies, so we had to sun him. Dr. Paul said I was all ok, the stitch wound was good, except I need to move my bowels more. And since I was at Dr. Paul's, I decided to drop by the Parentcraft Center to consult them on feeding.
The nurse commented that my breast was quite blocked, so she recommended I stayed on for some treatment. Another lactation consultant massaged my breast and put me on a pump. I felt like a piece of dough, being kneaded and grabbed every possible way to clear the milk ducts. It hurts when she squeezed me!!! Later Mrs Wong happened to be around and Ezra was fretting, so she give him a little massage and fed him. She commented about his filament being too near to the edge of the tongue. He could have problems latching and grow up with a short tongue. If it does not correct itself, we might have to snip it off. Yucks. We are praying now that the correction will take place naturally.
Later, we waited to register Ezra's birth and get the Baby Bonus applications done. Today we spent $207 with the PD, $90+ at Dr. Paul's, $80 at Parentcraft for the treatment and vitamins and another $40 to register the birth. Wow, $400 in a day! It was scary!!!
When I got home and tried expressing.... lo and behold, the flow was easier! Praise God! I expressed about 100ml in all that day. Btw, I weigh myself, I was 66.8kg on the day of delivery, now I am 59.4kg. I lost 7.4kg. I hope to lose 10kg more, heh.
God is good indeed. I prayed for a smooth and quick delivery, a healthy baby, for pains to be relieved, for breast milk... God answered them all. Now I need to pray for God to help us with our finances and also help Ezra's filament to be corrected. I have no doubt that God will bless.
"I am 5 days old" (20 Oct 2008)
My bundle of Joy
I didn't have to wait 16 days for Ezra... he came 3 days from my last post - on 16 October 2008.
I was kinda unprepared for it, thinking I still have 2 weeks to go.
I got up in the morning with abdominal cramps. I have planned to meet Eunice for brunch and then get some errands done later in the day.
At 10am, I decided I should stay home, since the pain didn't go away. After Heng left for work, I tried to lie down and decided to time the intervals. I didn't think it was labour because it didn't feel like contractions (contracting sensation at the abdomen), it just felt like menstrual cramps.
At 11am, I called up Dr. Paul Tseng's clinic to ask if I should be concerned about the pain. The nurse told me perhaps I should drop by and let Dr. Paul take a look. I showered, got my stuff together and headed down to the clinic with my mother-in-law. I still wasn't sure if I was going to give birth that day.
When I got to the clinic at 12+pm, I was told the doc just left, but they put me on a machine to track the baby's heartbeat and my contractions. The contractions hurt bad when it came but they weren't regular. The nurse commented that I might not be ready and could probably go home and rest for the weekend. That thought was agonizing because I was in such pain already.
We waited till about 2.40pm to see Dr. Paul. Meanwhile, the contractions got stronger. When the doc finally saw me, he commented that I might already be about 4cm dilated. When he actually measured, I was already 7cm dilated and ready to deliver!!! They hurried me down to the labour ward in a wheelchair. By 3pm, I was very sure that I was delivering now and I sent an SMS to my family and Wivi.
A nurse mentioned my pain tolerance was quite high, so I decided to go without epidural as planned. I was given the laughing gas which was great at first, cos I got high after each puff, but later on, it just became a distraction, a good distraction actually.
I had to wait until about 4+pm before I was fully dilated and ready to push. The nurse who was trying to help me seemed rather annoyed that I could not push properly. I was trying very hard, it was not successful. My contractions were short and I could only squeeze in 2 pushes per contraction. Finally, I was so exhausted from pushing, another nurse suggested the doctor came to help.
Dr. Paul suggested using a vacuum. He lubricated the cup and stuffed that thing up my birth canal. According to Heng, I screamed like a mad woman. I could feel the pressure when the vacuum cup was in me while the doc waited for the next contraction. Then he started pulling and I started pushing. At one moment, there was an explosion of pain that made me screamed my lungs out. I must have screamed like crazy cos Heng said he was traumatized by it. After a couple of seconds, the pain suddenly disappeared, so I gathered all my strength to make some final pushes.
Ezra was born at 17:27hrs.
It was definitely a relieve that its all over. The doc sewed up my tear while the baby was being checked. I was cleaned up and allowed to hold the baby. I finally got out of the labour ward and into the normal room at about 6pm.
From then on, it was some pampering from my family (Dad was feeding me dinner) and the rest were anxious to see the baby, who has to be warmed up for the next 3 hours. Over the next 2 days at the hospital, I received visits, gifts and well-wishes from family, friends and colleagues. I am overwhelmed by the love and concern everyone has for us.
Finally, I was overwhelmed that I finally get to see Ezra after 9 months. I felt so much love for him, love that cannot be explained. I also felt very grateful to my parents, now that I have my own child, I know how much they love me.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Officially on leave
Ok, so today is the 1st day of my official leave... and i'm BORED!
Well, I got some baby stuff cleaned and ready. I feel like I have so much to do but have not done them yet!
Heng is angry at me for doing too much stuff... so I gotta try to take it easy... but I know me, its so hard to keep still!
Anyway, yesterday the lovely people at Yellow Octopus threw a birthday/farewell/baby shower party. We had funny baby related gams led by Wivi, then pizza from Al Forno (yum!) and chicken wings, veg, risotto made by Edna. She also made a lovely carrot cake! I received a bouquet of bright yellow & orange flowers from Kevin and Edna, Grace drew some cute stuff on bibs and finally a Maxi-Cosi infant car seat!
Well, I got some baby stuff cleaned and ready. I feel like I have so much to do but have not done them yet!
Heng is angry at me for doing too much stuff... so I gotta try to take it easy... but I know me, its so hard to keep still!
Anyway, yesterday the lovely people at Yellow Octopus threw a birthday/farewell/baby shower party. We had funny baby related gams led by Wivi, then pizza from Al Forno (yum!) and chicken wings, veg, risotto made by Edna. She also made a lovely carrot cake! I received a bouquet of bright yellow & orange flowers from Kevin and Edna, Grace drew some cute stuff on bibs and finally a Maxi-Cosi infant car seat!
I was putting off getting a car seat because I wasn't sure how it was to fit into the van. I was also hoping I could get away with strapping him to me at the back of the van until he was old enough to sit in a toddler car seat. I didn't really want to spend money on it at this point of time. It is a blessing we got it as a gift. But looks like he can only fit in there for about 18 months or so... so I felt a little 'saiyang'. Anyway, i'm gonna make it last 3 kids worth. Haha!
Anyway, I think my weight is fluctuating about 2kg because of the water retention. But I better not put on more from now on.
Anyway, I think my weight is fluctuating about 2kg because of the water retention. But I better not put on more from now on.
16 days to go till 30 Oct!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Week 37 tomorrow
66.7kg!!!
I'm so gonna kill myself if I continue like this. 3 more weeks to go... I can't afford to hit 70kg!!! Yah, I didn't quite control my diet, but I didn't really have McDonald's supper either!
So anyway, I've been having REALLY BAD swollen feet... they feel like exploding at the end of the day for the last week or so. I don't have a choice but to walk like a penguin. Do penguins have swollen feet too?
I can't wait to pop already!!!
I'm so gonna kill myself if I continue like this. 3 more weeks to go... I can't afford to hit 70kg!!! Yah, I didn't quite control my diet, but I didn't really have McDonald's supper either!
So anyway, I've been having REALLY BAD swollen feet... they feel like exploding at the end of the day for the last week or so. I don't have a choice but to walk like a penguin. Do penguins have swollen feet too?
I can't wait to pop already!!!
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Week 34 tomorrow
I technically have 6 more weeks to go. Seems like a really long time.
I'm starting to have all the pregnancy cons now... stretch marks, swollen legs, tiredness (i get sleepy at like 10pm), more anxiety, more tossing in bed, clumsier, heavier, slower.
I weigh 64kg today. gross. I've put on 12.5kg so far... it's a little more than what I have expected. I've been having quite a few suppers the last 2 weeks... so hungry... so it's time to cut down again. I MUST NOT exceed 65kg, if anything at all. SELF CONTROL MODE ON FULL BLAST!
Doctor confirmed the EDD is 30 Oct. What a bummer! I can't wait to have him out already... Then again, I couldn't really figure out how live goes on with him around all the time... how to go to the hairdressers? get my massage/facial?
Sunday, September 7, 2008
up at 2.50am
I was puking and farting at the same time... yeks! A really bad case of heartburn.
The recent 3 weeks or so have been more 'eventful' then the rest - more muay thai stunts from the boy, more sleepless/uncomfortable nights, breathlessness that makes me sound like a pug and now; the more severe heartburn. I've had heartburn for a while now, but they are usually quite minor, I either eat it away or simply ignore it. I wonder if it was the nasi lemak dinner I had earlier. Anyway, it was ALL acid and gross tasting. I really hope this does not happen too often.
I also get stressed-out easily. My mind thinks about work when I sleep - I dream of Kevin hounding me for stuff. I was just nightmaring about YOLO before this heartburn-puking bout. Whenever I thought 'YOLO', the acid comes up. Since Heng has been listening to Bill O'Reiley lately, the song also gets stuck in my head. It rang all night, last night. A new tune rings tonight.
My nesting instincts are getting stronger - I cleaned like crazy last weekend. Decided to take it slow this weekend, but it seemed like I did quite a bit this weekend too. Since ju-ju is ill, Heng has to force feed him, making a slight mess in the bedroom, so I find myself constantly wiping and dusting away. Plus the pesky ants keep coming back!
I couldn't take it anymore, I piled up the baby's clothes and wraps into the washer. The baby wardrobe is finally going to be finished! Just got the clothes rod, hangers and missing basket. Now get everything washed. And it's all ready till delivery!
The cot is arriving next week... but i'll try to set up the room for the confinement lady only in October. There is lots to do - move the bettas and their barang-barang out, let the bed down, set the cot with sheets, give everything a wipedown... I don't want to do this too early, in case Ezra comes late and everything sits in the dust for too long. I want to do it early cos I just want to get everything done asap, but that means I also tire myself out every weekend wiping / cleaning. What an irony!
I should have everything I need, except maybe some cot sheets. I keep thinking that the cot is really tiny. Anyway, I have so much baby clothes I may not have the space for them! Thankfully I didn't buy much - only 2 sets of plain ones, to be exact. Well, adding up all the costs now seems so scary - maybe I should not think about it. Today we got some milk formular to standby - $28.90! I really hope I don't have problems breastfeeding.
Think I really want to stop work end of Sept to take a rest. Time flies... I am about 7 weeks to due. Wow.
The recent 3 weeks or so have been more 'eventful' then the rest - more muay thai stunts from the boy, more sleepless/uncomfortable nights, breathlessness that makes me sound like a pug and now; the more severe heartburn. I've had heartburn for a while now, but they are usually quite minor, I either eat it away or simply ignore it. I wonder if it was the nasi lemak dinner I had earlier. Anyway, it was ALL acid and gross tasting. I really hope this does not happen too often.
I also get stressed-out easily. My mind thinks about work when I sleep - I dream of Kevin hounding me for stuff. I was just nightmaring about YOLO before this heartburn-puking bout. Whenever I thought 'YOLO', the acid comes up. Since Heng has been listening to Bill O'Reiley lately, the song also gets stuck in my head. It rang all night, last night. A new tune rings tonight.
My nesting instincts are getting stronger - I cleaned like crazy last weekend. Decided to take it slow this weekend, but it seemed like I did quite a bit this weekend too. Since ju-ju is ill, Heng has to force feed him, making a slight mess in the bedroom, so I find myself constantly wiping and dusting away. Plus the pesky ants keep coming back!
I couldn't take it anymore, I piled up the baby's clothes and wraps into the washer. The baby wardrobe is finally going to be finished! Just got the clothes rod, hangers and missing basket. Now get everything washed. And it's all ready till delivery!
The cot is arriving next week... but i'll try to set up the room for the confinement lady only in October. There is lots to do - move the bettas and their barang-barang out, let the bed down, set the cot with sheets, give everything a wipedown... I don't want to do this too early, in case Ezra comes late and everything sits in the dust for too long. I want to do it early cos I just want to get everything done asap, but that means I also tire myself out every weekend wiping / cleaning. What an irony!
I should have everything I need, except maybe some cot sheets. I keep thinking that the cot is really tiny. Anyway, I have so much baby clothes I may not have the space for them! Thankfully I didn't buy much - only 2 sets of plain ones, to be exact. Well, adding up all the costs now seems so scary - maybe I should not think about it. Today we got some milk formular to standby - $28.90! I really hope I don't have problems breastfeeding.
Think I really want to stop work end of Sept to take a rest. Time flies... I am about 7 weeks to due. Wow.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
a new purchase
Daddy is very happy with this $530 purchase. It is light, stylish looking and can open and close with just one hand! Downside is that it seems rather filmsy and the cloth material does not look very sturdy.
I like it cos I can face the baby and I really like the design. Having a nice pram is like carrying a branded bag - it's status!!!
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Thanksgiving!
Thank God for the government's decision to start the child benefits on 17 August, that means I qualify!
I am going to get 4 months worth of salary... of course, this is made possible with Kevin's agreement to give me my bonus as salary for 2 months. I don't think 2 months bonus is alot, considering that was what I got for working only 6 months last year... but I am thankful for whatever I can get.
Whatever it is, I thank God for his provision. God is good.
I am going to get 4 months worth of salary... of course, this is made possible with Kevin's agreement to give me my bonus as salary for 2 months. I don't think 2 months bonus is alot, considering that was what I got for working only 6 months last year... but I am thankful for whatever I can get.
Whatever it is, I thank God for his provision. God is good.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Not happy at all
Yup, the new benefits which I was 'aiming' at is only eligible for babies born after 1 Jan 2009. I AM NOT PLEASED AT ALL. I am missing out on 1 month of pay from the government and some cash bonus. Now I gotta think harder on whether to spend on a brand new pram.
NOT HAPPY, NOT HAPPY!
NOT HAPPY, NOT HAPPY!
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Week 30 (or so i think)
This number of weeks thing is driving me crazy. The doc wrote 'Wk 29+' on my card. The scan says 'Wk 30', 'Wk 31' and 'Wk 32'. Another chart says 'Wk 31'. Arggghhh! So which week am I in? I'm totally confused! So based on the scan today, I am expected to be due anytime from 10 - 28 October. Maybe I should induce him on 9 October. Heh.
So i've had some really painful jabs from the sausage boy the last 2 weeks. He made me cry. Today we found out that all his limbs were punching me on 1 spot. I think he is going to be a Muay Thai champion - no doubts about it.
I am very pleased I only put on 1.2kg since my last visit. Phew!! That means I put on 8.7kg so far and 4 more kg to go till term looks pretty manageable. Did i eat less McWing? Maybe just 1 or 2 less. But I haven't been as hungry these 2 weeks then 3 weeks ago. No worries, baby is growing well - 1.688kg.
Finances has been running low... here is some stuff that we bought:
Avent Steam Sterillizer $136
Baby cot $254
Baby wipes approx. $50
Swaddling cloth & bathing towels approx. $40
Creams, shampoo, detergent approx. $80
Bottles & teats approx. $30
Seat cushion $37
Breast Pads approx. $50
Niplette $56
We saw a Combi RiccoW pram that we liked alot - $530 - we have not decided to purchase it yet. Next month, we have to pay $1,200 for the gynae to deliver the baby. There are more things I need to get - extra sheets for the cot, washing detergent, nursing wear and nursing bras... this baby business is costly!
Anyway, the PM just announced 4 months of maternity leave and more incentive for 1st time parents e.g. cash and childcare leave. I pray I am eligible for it, I need the money!!
So i've had some really painful jabs from the sausage boy the last 2 weeks. He made me cry. Today we found out that all his limbs were punching me on 1 spot. I think he is going to be a Muay Thai champion - no doubts about it.
I am very pleased I only put on 1.2kg since my last visit. Phew!! That means I put on 8.7kg so far and 4 more kg to go till term looks pretty manageable. Did i eat less McWing? Maybe just 1 or 2 less. But I haven't been as hungry these 2 weeks then 3 weeks ago. No worries, baby is growing well - 1.688kg.
Finances has been running low... here is some stuff that we bought:
Avent Steam Sterillizer $136
Baby cot $254
Baby wipes approx. $50
Swaddling cloth & bathing towels approx. $40
Creams, shampoo, detergent approx. $80
Bottles & teats approx. $30
Seat cushion $37
Breast Pads approx. $50
Niplette $56
We saw a Combi RiccoW pram that we liked alot - $530 - we have not decided to purchase it yet. Next month, we have to pay $1,200 for the gynae to deliver the baby. There are more things I need to get - extra sheets for the cot, washing detergent, nursing wear and nursing bras... this baby business is costly!
Anyway, the PM just announced 4 months of maternity leave and more incentive for 1st time parents e.g. cash and childcare leave. I pray I am eligible for it, I need the money!!
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Week 27+
I recalculated the dates on the scan photos, I think I'm in my 27th week. 3rd trimester! I think its time to take some pix of my stomach.
I weigh 59kg at my last visit to the gynae. That's 4kg in 5 weeks. Yeks. That's 7.5kg of weight in all... I can only afford to put on 4.5 more kg for the next 3 months to make a total of 12kg. I'm eating less junk food these weeks... :P
Ezra has been moving quite alot. And I've been attending childbirth classes - learnt some exercises, breathing methods and massages. Don't understand half the class, but so far so good.
Friday, July 11, 2008
Week 23
I only have a handful of clothes I can fit into! I need to shop!
Anyway, Heng felt the baby move for the first time last night. He tapped my tummy and asked 'why are you not sleeping yet', and the baby actually responded with a weird wavy bump and a couple more taps after that. Hehe... it was cute.
Anyway, Heng felt the baby move for the first time last night. He tapped my tummy and asked 'why are you not sleeping yet', and the baby actually responded with a weird wavy bump and a couple more taps after that. Hehe... it was cute.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Week 19+
I'm almost halfway there! It's really fast and its been quite easy so far, so I hope it stays this way.
I started off being 51.5kg. I'm 56kg today. That's 4.5kg in about 5 months. I hope I don't go beyond 65kg... cos Betty is almost 70kg! And she was 48kg when she started off. I haven't seen her for a while, but she already looks big when I met her when she was about 5+months... Really don't wanna be too concerned about losing weight after delivery... :P
I started off being 51.5kg. I'm 56kg today. That's 4.5kg in about 5 months. I hope I don't go beyond 65kg... cos Betty is almost 70kg! And she was 48kg when she started off. I haven't seen her for a while, but she already looks big when I met her when she was about 5+months... Really don't wanna be too concerned about losing weight after delivery... :P
Officially iron deficient! Yippie!
Obviously, any kind of deficiency is not to be celebrated... but in my case, it is! Yay! I'm not anemic or thalassemic... means baby is not affected in any way. *phew*
Anyway, today we did a detailed scan. Baby was a little shy, covering his face with his tiny hands. He was kicking around a little, showing off his feet and you-know-what'. "Like father like son". Hmmmm....
Think he's aspiring to be Christiano Ronaldo or something (although I think I might prefer a Lewis Hamilton, but a Chinese version). Doc says he is a little on the big side - I hope he slows down on growing, cos I'm quite worried about trying to get him out naturally.
Time for some serious shopping!!!
P/S: I think the last pic on right is a little scary - baby without eyeballs!!
Anyway, today we did a detailed scan. Baby was a little shy, covering his face with his tiny hands. He was kicking around a little, showing off his feet and you-know-what'. "Like father like son". Hmmmm....
Think he's aspiring to be Christiano Ronaldo or something (although I think I might prefer a Lewis Hamilton, but a Chinese version). Doc says he is a little on the big side - I hope he slows down on growing, cos I'm quite worried about trying to get him out naturally.
Time for some serious shopping!!!
P/S: I think the last pic on right is a little scary - baby without eyeballs!!
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Iron deficient? Anemic? Thalassemia?
After last tuesday's initial blood test, they found that I had abnormal blood cells. They needed me to go back again for another blood test to ascertain whether I was a Thalassamia carrier - this could pass on to my child.
I was upset because I felt helpless about this. I felt I was diseased because i had a 'blood disorder' although the websites says it IS NOT a blood disorder.
Anyway, the nurse just called again this morning. They still cannot ascertain if I was iron deficient or anemic. So they are going to start me on iron pills. I guess no news is sort of good news. I think I might be iron deficient because I don't really get the symptoms of anemia.
Well... Ezra is 16 weeks now and growing steadily.
I was upset because I felt helpless about this. I felt I was diseased because i had a 'blood disorder' although the websites says it IS NOT a blood disorder.
Anyway, the nurse just called again this morning. They still cannot ascertain if I was iron deficient or anemic. So they are going to start me on iron pills. I guess no news is sort of good news. I think I might be iron deficient because I don't really get the symptoms of anemia.
Well... Ezra is 16 weeks now and growing steadily.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
It's EZRA!
The doc showed us his 'wee wee' today :)
Sort of knew it was a boy... mother's instincts :)
Had yicky blood test today. It hurts! Ouch! Thankfully nurse says it is the first and last blood test. I really hope they don't poke me with stuff during the delivery. I think I fear needles/poking more than giving birth. But I think I will change my mind when Ezra is halfway out.
Ok, time for some shopping! My clothes are bursting and we need some manly stuff for Ezra.
P/S:I can't figure this pix out. Think the head is on the right, and body on left...
Sort of knew it was a boy... mother's instincts :)
Had yicky blood test today. It hurts! Ouch! Thankfully nurse says it is the first and last blood test. I really hope they don't poke me with stuff during the delivery. I think I fear needles/poking more than giving birth. But I think I will change my mind when Ezra is halfway out.
Ok, time for some shopping! My clothes are bursting and we need some manly stuff for Ezra.
P/S:I can't figure this pix out. Think the head is on the right, and body on left...
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Week 14
I've been using the pregnancy as an excuse to eat - any amount, any time of the day, anything I wanna eat. Life is good! (just hope I don't put on too much weight by my next gynae appointment!)
Making out a list of the things I will need... alot of stuff! So I hope the kind people who loves me will make some contributions - heh.
Had an interesting chat with Sis Elizabeth today... she asked me to have a mental picture of how I want my family to be. I also need to think of how I want my children to be; physically, spiritually, talents, etc. I also had to think of how I should be teaching my child, disciplining, etc. Wow, lots to think about! Think it will really help when the time comes... So I hope to get down to doing this thinking soon so I can prepare myself fully.
Making out a list of the things I will need... alot of stuff! So I hope the kind people who loves me will make some contributions - heh.
Had an interesting chat with Sis Elizabeth today... she asked me to have a mental picture of how I want my family to be. I also need to think of how I want my children to be; physically, spiritually, talents, etc. I also had to think of how I should be teaching my child, disciplining, etc. Wow, lots to think about! Think it will really help when the time comes... So I hope to get down to doing this thinking soon so I can prepare myself fully.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Week 13
Seems like I'm starting getting all the pregnancy 'symptoms' or 'hazards'.
Sudden hunger (like starvation type of hunger), leaky pee pee, putting on weight... I do hope i'll never get morning sicknesses!
Oh, btw, Heng got a pay raise! Yay! But he 'spent' it on repairing his van - ran into a pole and broke the glass on the back panel. Thank God for the raise!
Sudden hunger (like starvation type of hunger), leaky pee pee, putting on weight... I do hope i'll never get morning sicknesses!
Oh, btw, Heng got a pay raise! Yay! But he 'spent' it on repairing his van - ran into a pole and broke the glass on the back panel. Thank God for the raise!
Friday, April 18, 2008
Scan #2 on 15 April
I'm calling him 'sausageboy'. Heng says he can see his nose - just like his. Yucky!
I'm not sure if its a boy yet... feels like it though! Gut feeling.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Going into my 11th week
So I decided I should start blogging about my 1st pregnancy... this is an exciting time that should not be forgotten :)
I'm getting drowsy now cos I just took my medication for my persistent cough. Funny I don't cough as much as when I am in the office. Bad office!
Thankfully I don't have much of the preggy issues e.g. morning sicknesses, cravings, bleeding, etc. I have been puking though, but I think that could possibly be due to the dry cough I am having. Heng must be very thankful I don't wake him in the middle of the night and ask for Bah Chor Mee from Bedok. Heh.
Work has been quite stressful - working on Sennheiser and NSN is kinda killing me. I was coughing, tearing, almost puking, hungry and grumpy when I was working on the NSN PPT till 11+pm last night. Am really considering drastically reducing my workload or just take time off work. I think I should be enjoying my first pregnancy while I can. As much as I worry about finances, whether we have saved enough in the bank to see us through the single income days to come, I think my and baby's health should come first.
Well... we'll see... after the check-up on Tuesday. I will consult the doctor on this issue and decide accordingly.
I'm getting drowsy now cos I just took my medication for my persistent cough. Funny I don't cough as much as when I am in the office. Bad office!
Thankfully I don't have much of the preggy issues e.g. morning sicknesses, cravings, bleeding, etc. I have been puking though, but I think that could possibly be due to the dry cough I am having. Heng must be very thankful I don't wake him in the middle of the night and ask for Bah Chor Mee from Bedok. Heh.
Work has been quite stressful - working on Sennheiser and NSN is kinda killing me. I was coughing, tearing, almost puking, hungry and grumpy when I was working on the NSN PPT till 11+pm last night. Am really considering drastically reducing my workload or just take time off work. I think I should be enjoying my first pregnancy while I can. As much as I worry about finances, whether we have saved enough in the bank to see us through the single income days to come, I think my and baby's health should come first.
Well... we'll see... after the check-up on Tuesday. I will consult the doctor on this issue and decide accordingly.
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