Saturday, November 15, 2008

1 month

Ezra is a month old tomorrow.

And yes, the dreaded time has come - the time for Auntie to leave. I don't think anyone can understand the anxiety I'm feeling. They might think I'm just being lazy, impatient or plain scared. Yes, I am definitely impatient and scared but NOT lazy.

Tomorrow is the first day of forever, just me and Ezra. His life is in my hands, I better make the right decisions. Oh yah, I'm so worried, trembling in my pants now that I'll be such a failure at being a mom. Is this depression setting in?

I can only pray and ask God for help.

This is supposed to be a time of celebration, not a time of agony but I just can't help but be upset.

I think this is depression setting in.

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