Dear Ruth...

I'm sorry for praying that you will be spotted with a protruding genital while having my detailed ultrasound scan yesterday. The gynae said you were a boy and we were going to name you Ezekiel. Papa had a shock as well and had some difficulty coming to terms with the news.

Seriously, I would really love another boy... for practical reasons, but also I had such a strong sense that you would be a boy from the beginning.

But my dear Ruth, I know I will love you so dearly, more than myself. I pray that you will become a sweet little girl like your big brother, Ezra, in appearances and in character... for you are so special to us.

I love you and cannot wait to see you in four months.

Love, mama.