6 months old today

6 months ago at this time, I was screaming my head off. About 30 minutes later, Ezra is born.

It is all still very surreal. When I was delivering him, the experience was so new I didn't know what to think. I wasn't even fully prepared yet. I knew I would freak out to be on a drip, but when the time came, I wasn't hysterical. And I always knew I would dislike staying in the hospital, but it wasn't half as bad. I was so nervous about having the drip needle removed, but it was over in a second and didn't even hurt as much as I would imagine it to be.

I thought I'm all ready to care for him, bathe, feed, change... but when the time came, I was a little less apt. By the time the confinement lady left, I was all worried that I wouldn't be able to care for him well, but the last 5 months have passed without much major episodes.

I am thankful to God because I knew He was the one that helped me along and made Ezra to be a good boy. He knows how much I could handle. He kept me sane so I wouldn't let the depression take over me completely. I would not have been able to do this alone.

Ezra is 6 months old, he is still underweight, still wearing clothes for 0-3 month olds. He still hasn't increased his milk intake and sometimes still fusses during his feeds. He has taken to solids pretty well. He likes bananas, sweet potatos and cereal because they are sweet. He doesn't like porridge with fish as much, but we shall try to accustom him to food without the natural sweet tastes. Oh, and he takes to people very well. He can be passed from person to person at church and not whimper. Problem is he has been making loud noises during service lately so I can't be in the main hall unless he is sleeping. I need to find a way to hear the sermon!

I am very glad to have reached the first milestone in his life. It is a milestone for me too because I would have to strategize what to do with him at every stage - food he eats, things he learns. He has started to crawl without the help of his head. I expect him to attempt walking by the time he is 9 months.

My milk supply has decreased because I only pump twice a day. Nowadays, I find myself lazy to pump! But I am glad I have given him breastmilk for the last 6 months and probably 2 more to go before I change over to formular for convenience sake when we travel to Bangkok. Oh! I can't wait for a vacation! It would be a treat for me to get away from my room for a while! :P